Why am I in Development? (Catherine C.)
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I am lazy; I never want to work. The concept of working 8 hours a day to then start ‘living’ at 5pm: I don’t get it. I don’t know how so many people can get through that without flipping out and committing atrocities.
But at the same time, I work more than the others: I am compulsively over-motivated and get involved into just enough things to avoid nervous breakdown.
I have issues, I guess.
So, a lot of people in my dear Western society feel that because of their work they have no life. Conversely, I want my work to be my life. I want my work to be so topical that it feels natural spending most of my time on it. I want my work to makes so much sense to me I won’t have to pay a psychologist when I hit 50 to ramble on about the meaning of my life. And I won’t get that by volunteering two hours per week. By choosing development, I wish my work will be exactly that: full-time purposeful and/or stimulating. Ideally. Simply running the 9-5pm routine, I know I’ll turn psychotic.
So really I am doing it for my mental health.
(Yep, paradoxically be choosing a field that will never allow my brain to rest in peace, for we will never be ‘done’. Until one of us finds the peace-on-earth regression, of course)
Talking about mental health… We’re pretty strong, pals. I mean maths, physics … pretty easy, no? You calculate; you get a number. Done. At least you get some form of answer. Social sciences are Uncertainty. Development is Uncertainty.
There is never one right answer. It’s always a complex-comprensive-holistic-multisectoral-multidisciplinary approach. Obnoxious, isn’t it? We will deal everyday with insecurity and parts-of-an-answer. In addition to insecurity of employment, for many of us. That has got to show some mental strength, somehow, I’d like to think.
A final thought on mental strength and development: there’s a little 4 words phrase that I think is a sign of weakness, and it is the hatred of it that brought me in development: I. don’t. care. I cannot let people get away with this. Not caring is not an argument or an opinion. It is just too easy.
Basically, I am a woman: I cannot make it simple when it can be complicated
Hence I chose development. ; )